and yet as i sat here watching castle, i felt inspiration. i reflected on how when hard things happen i need time to cope. that is the way my body works. i need space and time from the world to just get myself settled. and then i understood-- good things that happen to me are like this, too. i need time to cope with them, to absorb my experience into my system. what have i been through in the past month? guyana. that's a big, good, thing. and probably, just as i was adjusting to being home and, in a way, becoming one with my experience, we move suddenly and somewhat unexpectedly. for a week and half, everything changes. i went through two experiences in under a month where my entire world changed for more than a week. that's huge! and my body and mind take time to process that. i know the two are connected. and i think that the sensitivity of my body and mind are something special my Heavenly Father has given me to help me learn to rely on Him. i really can't do anything on my own, but when i rely on Him and listen for His promptings, His suggestions, and obey His commandments-- He can make so much out of my life! i mean, really-- I went to Guyana! a year ago i never would have thought i would travel the world and now i'm thinking i need to find a way to make it my profession... and y'know what? God willing, I will.
"God willing." that's all that matters. if it's His will or something He's willing to support, then I can do it. "I can do all things through Christ, which strengtheneth me." -Philippians 4:13
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