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Okay, a few things on my mind, and as usual I'll address them here in a session of constructive babbling.

Last night was a neighboring stake's production of Savior of the World. It was really quite excellent. Unfortunately, not too long after it started did I begin to get a migraine (I should have listened that little voice in my head earlier that day that said "I think I'm getting a migraine"), and I also began to feel nauseous (as in, more so than my regular baseline nausea), so, out of the audience into the hallway I went. I sat against the wall and leaned my head on my knees, closing my eyes and trying to hear the performance. I could hear the songs (beautiful!) and the little kids running down the hallway. I think I remember sighing and having that feeling of frustration begin to well up inside of me. I was bothered by the fact that I couldn't be in there to listen to the play and have that oppurtunity to feel the Spirit. And then I remembered or realized something significant. I changed my perspective accordingly, and decided to allow myself to feel content. Even though I couldn't hear all of the performance, I was still perfectly capable of benefiting from the Spirit there. I decided to allow it to change my attitude and perspective- to get me in focus. To soak it up and help me to be more Christlike and kind.
I still struggled that evening (vomiting, friendship dynamics, migraining etc.) but found myself able to deal with it all and maintain some feeling of peace.

more later...